Echo Park Lake

December 13, 2016

echoparklakeA little over a month ago Sadie and I met at Echo Park Lake for brunch. There we enjoyed a cheap bottle of rosé and bagels with lox as we sat for hours discussing the result of the presidential election and filling each other in on what had been going on in our lives. The major theme from our conversation was how we both were wrought with anxiety over what comes next… That applied to both the state of the country, as well as in our personal lives.

Since these photos were taken, I’ve quit my job and moved across the country back home to Maine. I must have tried to write this blog post close to twenty times now. Each time I would attempt to collect my thoughts and begin typing, only to erase it all out of frustration that no amount of words seemed to do my experience justice. I have to admit there’s a part of me now that feels a similar dissatisfaction.picnicechoparkSo what happened? I wasn’t happy living in Los Angeles. I mean I was happy to be living in the physical city, but on a deeper level, I wasn’t fulfilled with my life opportunities there. It got to a point where I was constantly anxious and depressed at work and felt completely untethered to what normally grounds me. I was barely making enough money to survive and I felt extremely isolated living alone in a new environment. What’s more is what I thought I so desperately wanted was in actuality extremely unfulfilling to me. I was on a path to becoming “a success” on paper, but in my heart, I felt sad.

picnicechoparklakeroseAn important thing to learn earlier on is what motivates you. For me, money will never be what gets me up in the morning. I crave beauty, creativity, spirituality, empowering those around me, and making some sort of difference on this earth each day. Although I’ve been able to access aspects of these things in my past jobs, none have been as fulfilling as image consulting and blogging has been for me. It finally hit me that I don’t have to wait twenty plus years to work my way up the career ladder to then follow my dreams. I can fight for my dreams starting today.

If you were to die tomorrow how would you want to spend your day today? I realize that’s a pretty hefty statement, but it brings to light the truth of whether you’re living day-to-day in a meaningful way. No ones’ answer to that question would be quite the same, but I think it’s fair to say that a lot of people would choose to spend the day doing something that they really love.

florals“What is success? It is being able to go to bed each night with your soul at peace.” — Paulo Coelhoadidas

I’ve been thinking a lot about my future and reflecting over my time spent the past three months in California. There are moments where I think that I didn’t try hard enough or that I was weak by quitting my last job. So often it makes me feel that I wasn’t as smart or as driven as I thought I was, but then I’m reminded that I quit because I was miserable and wasn’t fulfilled on a soul level. Coming back definitely has its obstacles, but I’m happy that I have a chance to help my community and be a light where it’s so greatly needed.flowerssadieHannahecholakepark


Kimono- Forever 21

Shirt- Target

Denim- Forever 21

Sneakers- Adidas Originals

Necklace- Forever 21

adidasoriginalsechoparkpicnicI’m not sure what comes next, but I do know that only good can come from listening to your gut. I don’t regret at all listening to my inner voice when I decided to move to LA. I’ve grown so much in such a short amount of time and so much of it was due to taking chances and learning to not let fear rule me. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a bit scared now trying to figure out  the job situation and what comes next, but a bigger part of me is excited by the unknown. I think it’s time I embrace my personal power and use my unique gifts to help bring love to the world- starting with you, my readers. Thank you for being apart of this journey xx



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