Grow

I’ve taken something of a break from blogging lately. Part of it was out of necessity because there were simply not enough minutes that made up each day—between work and finishing school, but also because I’ve been overwhelmed emotionally. In the past two weeks alone I’ve completed my master’s degree, finished my 6-month long internship with New Balance, moved out of the home I lived-in nannied for to temporarily move home, only to pack up and leave once again this upcoming Friday. The next destination in the journey? Los Angeles.

Over the past few months I’ve felt such a deep and intense feeling that I can only describe as growing pains. It’s felt as if my bud has begun to blossom and each petal is working passionately to outstretch towards the sunlight, while at the same time my roots cling deeper and sink further into the earth. Is it possible to grow in two directions? In my case, during this intense transition I’ve felt pulled between treasuring family with the desire to follow my passions and dreams. I’ve known for sometime now that I would have to choose following my heart, no matter if that takes me away from everyone that I love.

Home is not where you are from, it is where you belong. Some of us travel the whole world to find it. Others, find it in a person.

—Beau Taplin

When I think of the concept of home I’m reminded that I’ve felt at home in many situations, in several environments, with different people, and at times on my own. As much as there are elements in our lives that serve as emotional anchors, these things will eventually fade or can change. I’m learning more and more that it’s about treasuring them while they last, and holding dear with you their lessons as you embark without them. As I continue to grow, so does The Fashion Cookbook. The people who contribute to it also grow, and as a result it is always evolving.

I’m so humbled and blessed that this mere blog has been one of the most formative outlets for me. It is in someways a physical manifestation of my being. When I think about what I dream about the most, it’s never been about a job or career, but always boiled down to the fact that I’ve wanted my everyday to be about being wholeheartedly myself and I tend to be the most in touch with that self when I’m creative or serving others. What’s beautiful is that I’ve started to find a way to do that through blogging and image consulting services. Little by little I’m working towards the life I’ve always desired, and also I’m connecting to my soul + purpose along the way.

I’m nervous of the next step, but I’m also thrilled beyond belief. No, I do not have a sure way of knowing if I’ll find success on the west coast, but I’m proud of myself for my willingness to try.

These photos were taken at the beautiful apothecary Avena Botanicals in Rockport, Maine. I highly suggest checking it out if you’re ever in the area! The herb gardens are so breathtaking and there are so many tucked away corners perfect for meditation and reflecting.